thequietsideofme

long time no update....

2009-12-29T18:26:00.000-08:00

hey bloggie.... im sorry for abandoning u for quite some time.... life have been hectic for me 4 quite a while so yah... sorry ya... i juz feel like updating tiday.. don ask y... i think i got some unsettle issues with my ownself that i havent fully have a closure on...

i juz came back from a famili vacation that was literally forced apon me... i mean im ok with it coz it gives me a chance to think all the stuff that has been going thru my mind lately... wat thing, that bloogie i can disclose it here... due to the fact that it might give some ppl wrong idea about the way im handling my problems... so while on the famili timeout, i got a lot of thinking done... some were very hard decision to make while some were juz staring right infront of my face, staring at me to do the right thing... while some of u might think im being to hard on myself, well to me its call tough-love... i need to know some sense in myself and not live in the bubble i created that all seem fine and dandy... its a harsh reality call for me but i have to suck it up n accept it... i might be smilling n joking ard but in reality tat side of me was gone a long time ago... its never coming back.. that i know for sure... yes i admit i might be emotional at times, n i also admit that sometimes ppl just get tired of me being emotional.. its really been quite hard for me trying not to be emotional... i run on my emotional sense... so i tend to be sensitve very easily.... i can tell when ppl are mad at me... i can tell when there's something wrong.... u don have to say in words for me to know coz i can juz sense it... but ppl don read me too well.... i can read ppl quite well but for them to read me is quite difficult... im not like an open book... to read my u have to know me.... sometimes i wish ppl could read me so as i don have to tell them how i feel... they can juz sense that something is wrong... its not like im asking for attention... maybe sometimes i do... but most of the time i juz want ppl to understand how i feel, understand that sometime i do feel what u ppl feel.... i mean i might be happy n bubbly but at the same time sad and depress.... this mix emotions have always been in me for quite sometime... onli a few can detect this emotions... i want to voice out what i feel but sometimes when the logical me takes over i tend to keep it to myself... a qoute i like to say is," i rather suffer in silence than making the ppl ard me suffer..., better me than them...."

*this part is in malay so juz bear with me coz im to tired to translate it into english..*

aku nie bagai pungguk rindukan bulan.... selama nie aku menaggih kasih dari kawan2 ku dan juga abg sedare ku... sesunguhnye aku berterima kasih pada kawan2 ku.... tanpa mereka, aku rase aku nie hilang.... tapi aku tau mereka semue ada hidup sendiri... aku sedar yg mereka sendiri mempunyai haluan masing-masing... aku yg masih belum ada arah tujuan ini tak patut menghalang perjalanan mereka.... di sini aku ingin meminta maaf... kerana selama ini aku rase yg aku nie telah menhalang haluan2 mereka... aku telah membuat keputusan....

selamat tinggal kawan2 ku.... kenangan indah ini akan ku bawa sampai bila2.... aku akan sentiase mengingati kamu semua....

a case of ups n downs...

2009-06-29T17:46:00.000-07:00

hey blog, its been awhile kan before i update... i don know wassup i cant open the new post everytime i wanted to update...(mungkin dier tknk kasi aku update kot....) hahaha... joking jer... watever it is i will try to update as often as possible ok....I PROMISE!!!!

haiya... tis past few weeks i have been having a MAJOR case of ups n downs... ups tk sgt kot... more to down.... entah ar.... i mean i juz guess my life havent been where i wanted it to be... like problems with my mom... mane ngan skola agi... ngan some personal stuff tat i shall not disclose here.... haisss..... having headache more n more lately... the only thing thats keeping me sane is Ferkaisha n Shitness... i mean seriously.. kalau tkder dorang i tink da lame aku masok IMH.... haissssss... entah la eh.... i juz can pray that it phase will pull over soon... i don tink i can handle another nervous breakdown... very tiring seh....

ok now i tink i need to priortise my life....

Aisha Priority List:

Ferkaisha&Shitness
Family
Schoolstuff
Other friends

for the time being this are the pirority in my life.... maybe the rest will come later... i don even wat to think of wanting to find a lifepartner or bf or wat so ever... cam tk pentz gi2 4 the time being... for the present i juz need my frens... not a guy that want to take away my freedom... plus i don tink my heart can handle anymore heartbreak... cukup jer la hatiku ini diranah oleh masa2 lepas...

i serously cant wait for the kl trip... i sooo need to whine down.... see the bigger picture n all.... plus i'll be surrounded by all my loves....(except for menjeng n icik that cannot make it..sadd-ded eh...)

ok then.. i think i will update soon k....

Muachkssss~~~~~!!!!

it ok... i have accpeed the fact....

2009-06-17T20:56:00.000-07:00

hey blog.. hahah... confirm u asking y my title like emo kan... hahaha...saje je...(saje nk dramatic cikit....hehehe....) actually.... ermmm.... tkper ar... i don tink i wanna share wif u juz yet... im juz not ready juz yet....

wat can i say eh... hmmm... havent been feeling like the old me for the past few days... tk tau kenape...(hormones kot...cisss....) yup been kinda emotional lately... feeling down, depressed, dissapointed n sometimes unloved...(the unloved part 2 kadang2 je ar... usually tk...heheh....) tak tau ar kenape... Icik said it might be because of THAT certain someone... but i doubt so... hahaha....(this part fyra confirm ckp mulut ckp lain hati ckp lain...) EH HATI AKU NGAN MULUT AKU SATU TEAM EH SO KALAU SATU KATE BENDE 2 THE OTHER ALSO SAY THE SAME THING.... hehehehe..... chilleks fyra aku saje nk gurauan berkasih ngan kau.... entah ar... very confused tau skrg... i tink i need to find a part-time bf ke fling ke ape for me 2 divert all my emotions kat org 2.. hahaha.. bole gi2... so sape2 nk apply jadi part-time bf atau part time fling aku??? hahaha....

ok random... i think i need to smootch someone....*hmmmmm*thinking* erm.... awak2 kite nk kiss awak leh??? hahahaha............

verge of sanity

2009-06-14T21:47:00.000-07:00

hey blog... as u know from my title im now on the verge of my sanity.. don't ask y coz i don have the answer for that... i seriously cant answer... i've been feeling down for the past few days... i think it might be the hormones... but entah eh... like i say i cant even answer my own question...

bimbo rite.... well, i think so too... i juz want to fly or travel somewhere where i can glaze at the sea or sky without having so much to think about... i want a place where i can find peace n tranquility.... i juz want drown myself in my thoughts... maybe i can make some sense to some of the thoughts im having...

i need...... hmmm.. i don know what i need... maybe i need shitness... maybe i need ferkaisha... oh maybe i juz need to be alone.... *sigh* i don even know what i need right now... i think i need to clear my mind....

*clearing my mind mode*

k ppl if u wanna find me maybe u can msn me or something.... if not u can always come to my humble hm in bukit indah to find me aite.... tat is if ur not lazy ar...

4th april 2009

2009-06-13T20:13:00.001-07:00

hahaha... hey blog... how u been???!!! its been a while since i looked at u.. yups2 been like uber bz wif stuff n sch that i didnt had the time to post entries here.... SORRI!!!!!(sungguh ku tak bermaksud nk meninggalkan mu sebegini.....) hehehe.... actually load of stuff happen during this pas few mths.... like the born of FerKaiSha(i tell u more about it later k), the FGS fleamarket, me breaking of with Mr.Teacher n load more... hahaha... i think im gonna start posting back entries here...
ok let me juz story mory u how Ferkaisha came about... its actually a bond between 3 people that i can say uber close eventhough we juz got to known each other for less that 6mths... yepsss.... as the name imply its actually the combination of our 3 names...

the Fer refer to fyra.....

the Kai refers to Khairul/Abg(thats what me n fyra call him)

and last but not least the Sha refers to the most comellest of all(ceh2 cam paham pe aku....) ME!!!

together we made up Ferkaisha....

yups thats us... well we did went thru loads of obsticles. some regarding abg, while some regarding fyra... but eventually we did manage to pull thru... i seriously am NOT ready to lose what we have right now. even when we did go thru dark time, i wasnt willing to let this bond go.. the tears that came out of my eyes to make this work might be worth it... some might say im stupid coz a a young friendship like tat does deserve all my tears n time.. but i disagree... coz they are the ppl i turn to(beside shitness tat is) in times of need... i can always count on them to lend me a shoulder to cry on... i really2 love/sayang them sgt2... hehehe..... on that i would like to post them a special note to them personally...

p/s: its gonna be on malay so if u guys don understand get a malay fren to translate for u coz im too lazy to translate what im gonna say to them aite....

to Abg....

adik nk terima kasih sgt2 kepada takdir kerana kenalkan abg kepada both adik n icik.. we are like totally grateful that u entered our life... tak pernah dlm 22 years adik ader dlm dunia nie adik rase like im being cared on(except by my parents n frens la i mean)... it still baffles me how we could get so close in such a short period of time... eventhough im only the second best to icik*ehem*ehem*, adik tk kisah coz as long as abg is in my life im happy with wat i have.... selame nie the only abg adik ader is the one in KL... tapi skrg adik ader abg here in SG.. tak yah nk tunggu raya aru dapat gurau2 n have that concern person looking out for u.... adik tau yg kadang2 adik nie terlalu bawak2kan emosi adik.. i tend to be over-emotional over small matters but juz so u know im tat kind of person... kalau adik rase adik salah i will apologise if adik emotional sgt.... i hope abg tk kecik hati kalau kadang adik emo2 ngan abg... hahaha... sorry k abg... adik really hope we can stay this close at the long run.. insyallah.... adik love/sayang abg sgt2!!!

to icik(fyra)...

part nie cam ader susah cikit aku nk type sal aku cam nk meleleh je airmata... so ok jap eh... *takes deep breath* ok go.... fyra, i guess u can say we went thru alot together... from our 1st meeting kat 4PM nye training to the first outing kite went out 2gether... yes... i really don get kenape kite leh click n rapat all in the same time as kite nie cam berbeza sgt... aku nie very loud n kecoh kau lak very not so loud but as kecoh as me.. eheheh... maybe its true wat ppl say that opposite do attract... not THAT sense of attract mind u(u can stop smiling fyra.... smack muke aru tau) but atrraction that we have... even when i went thru a kinda dark phase in my life, i was fortunate that i have both u n abg to lighten the day... aku anggap kau cam adik aku sendiri... an adik that irritates me but also loves me as much as i would irritate n loves her.. haha... aku juz harap kite leh kekalkan wat we have right now.... if i were to choose between losing both of u or death, i rather choose death coz for me to lose u is like dying... aku love/syg kau sgt2!!!

i will never 4get the date.... 4th April 2009..... they day we all 1st meet.... im grateful that i was given the oppertunity to befriend both of you....... thanks u guys..... u really complete me.....

*huggs**kisses*

Mischiq/Adik/Akak.......

muachksssss.....!!!!

this song is from me to both of you.... hope abg ngan icik like it.....

no title

2009-03-25T09:11:00.000-07:00

i tried my hardest to keep this afloat...

but now im thinking that its not worth my effort...

ur indifference towards this relationship is making me question

if im making the right choice...

if all the effort im putting in are not wasted on a dead end direction...

should i try to make it better...

or should i be like u, indiferrent to the surrounding...

im tired....

tired of trying to please the people around me...

i swear i did try to make it better...

but as days goes by, i feel the drift....

i don't know if u know it....

but im very sure that u feel it.....

how can i carry on in this situation?

you tell me....

p/s:hey guys, im going to be on hiatus for the moment... need some time to collect my thoughts and decide some very difficult decisions... i'll comeout when im mentally prepared.... till then....

xoxo

lazy....

2009-03-25T02:36:00.000-07:00

hey peeps..

its been a while since i posted....

well, i got a lot of stuff to blog about...

like the time when i work for a week in my sch helping the registration for the new batchs of students...

and also the time when i lepaks wif some of the shitness...

or the mentor's training that i went to n made a few new CUTE(nie important) frens...

hahahah..

but im juz too lazy... okok i promise when i m not too lazy i'll get back to blogging... till then...

xoxo
mischiq...

p/s: SOPI WAT HAPPEN TO UR BLOG?? CETE CIKIT KAT AKU.... SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH....

the new song that keeps playing in my head....

2009-03-05T20:55:00.000-08:00

Ini mimpi anak remaja

Seindahnya mimpi para dewa

Tak pernah berhenti ceritanya

Yang biasa jadi tak biasa

[#]Memangnya dunia ini punyamu

Apa memang hanya ada kamu

Banyak yang bisa menggantikan

Putus satu tumbuh seribu

Chorus_1 :

Putus nyambung putus nyambung putus nyambung

Sekarang putus besok engak menyesal

Kalau loe laku hari ini putus

Ya putus aja

Chorus_2 :

Putus nyambung putus nyambung putus nyambung

Kalau dekat benci kalau jauh kangen

Lihat saja nanti apa yang terjadi

Putus ataukah nyambung

Aku taat kamu tapi suka

Aku dan kamu memang gengsian

Sampai kapan harus begini

Putus nyambung putus nyambung terus

Back to Chorus_1 Chorus_2

Back to [#]Back to Chorus_1 Chorus_2

Back to Chorus_1 Chorus_2

Putus nyambung putus nyambung putus nyambung putus nyambung

Gitu dong...Ngarep loe...

unstable state of mind...

2009-02-24T19:13:00.000-08:00

hey, its been a while since i updated this thing.. yes been super bz wif some stuff... projects n personal stuff which i will not disclose...

i've been having this weird2 feeling towards some of my peers this pass few days... i dont know how to explain it but its a kind of feeling i don tink i wan to project towards my peers.. i feel like im being outside the circle... u might think im going mad or something but i have been having the feeling for quite some times... i understand now how one of my gf feels when she talks to me about her feeling... everytime i tried to ease my way into the circle, ii get pushed back out... its fustrating sometimes.. but i keep trying and trying and trying... i think i juz want to stop... stop trying so hard... if im not welcome then its ok... i think its time i have a change of scenery, a change of environment...

maybe i should drop poly here.... leave all behind to start afresh...

maybe i would go......

i need advise

2009-02-02T19:04:00.000-08:00

hey i really need advise about something...

the parental unit wants me to drop the poly course im taking rite now

they want me to enrol to a university in malaysia

the want me to enrol to UNITEN

i got accepted the 1st time last year but i decided not to go

as i juz started working...

now im really confused....

do i want to withdraw from the course and leave all my frens i made here

or do i want stay and not leave???

some might think its a good move, from diploma to degree

i too think its a good move..

but now i need assurance from my shitness love....

HID!!!SOPI!!!JNAB!!!MENJENG!!!YATI!!!SYAZ!!!BARNEY!!!FARID!!!REENA!!!NANI!!!DINSELAMAT!!!!

I NEED U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELP ME!!!!!!!

guys vs girls

2009-01-20T23:23:00.000-08:00

hey all, its been a while since i really blog.. been like super bz lately with sch projects and someother personal stuff... yes super bz juggling school and social life... let me juz tell you that poly life really suck your personal life completely dry.. i haven't been meeting my friends in weeks.. the only communication that we have is via the phone or sms or msn... the last one is the most commonly used by all of us when we want to find some of our friends.. i miss them.. i feel like im living in a glass ball.. the only people i interact with are the people i see in sch... i don even get to hang out with the guys from my class.... yes i officially hate poly life...

some might say its during poly life that we make longlife friends... i beg to differ. cause in the 1 year i spend here, i don't see myself being in a longterm friendship with some of them.. there are some whom i can see the potential but most of them i juz see them as a classmate/schoolmate kinda term... i don't know.. maybe due to the fact my age gap has something to do with it.. or maybe the fact that some of them already have their own clique(i hope i spell it correctly). even when i have the same class as them, i don feel the chemistry i had with them once... even with the ones im close with.. sometime i juz feel out of place around them.. i might been in my comfort zone for a while.. seeing my secondary school friends juz hangout at civic drinking bubble tea and talking crap for most of the time, going out to some ulu places to have our impromt photoshoot, eating dinner together at causeway point banquet, ban mianing at tampinese food culture with boobs(juz call her that coz i don wan to type her name), going to a certain starbucks at suntec tower 4 to juz chill and wait for mary to finish her shift serving coffee to random strangers... i can see that us(the secondary sch friends and me) can have this friendship alive till we grow old, going to each other's weeding, seeing each other's child grow up... i can see myself doing all this with them.. but with the new poly friends i make, i don see us being more the poly frens after we finish this course... i might be wrong but the way all this going on... i doubt so that im gonna be wrong....

maybe time would tell....

p/s:sorry for the long post... i juz feel like typing a long entry today.....

HAPPY READING!!

we will always be there to stand by you...

2009-01-14T19:39:00.000-08:00

this video i have posted quite a while ago... but im reposting it juz to let my nadya know we will always be there for you... remember the good times we have together... hope that this makes u smile.....

starting of the year and starting of school

2009-01-06T07:15:00.000-08:00

hey all, its been a while since i last updated this thang... yup been super duper bz with some stuff... so its already 209... yup feeling extra old this year... donnoe why... been very emotional lately... like get ticked off easily... maybe due to the fact im growing older by the day.... yes yes.... i have longed accepted the fact im old this year...

hmmm wats new with me... i juz started school back... n i think its kinda okok on my part.... got a chance to see the asses i KINDA miss when we were on holidays.... yup back on tracks with the laughter n nonsencesness..... kinda dull without them in my life.... not to say my life kinda boring but they sure add more spice n color to my already full of color life... but i think today was the 1st time some of them really push my button... got sooooooooo mad with them that i feel like crying.... seriously.... i almost cried sia... (thanks ar korang....).. really pissed of then.... totally wanna go back home... i didnt even pick up their call untill the 4th or 3rd time they call me... let me juz tell u guys, im the kind of person okok happy go lucky... but if u pissed me off that is when you gonna see the other side which you will feel guilty to what you did towards me... so better think twice if u wan to pissed me off...

oh ya too all my lovely shitness ppl, pls meet up soon ok.... i miss u all soooooo much......

i miss nani_martini aka boobs

i miss dayah aka minahrep mushroom head

i miss yatti aka yakenshi laura

i miss redzuan aka sopie

i miss zainah aka jnab

i miss nadya aka menjeng

i miss ain aka barney

i miss syaz aka syazzie wazzie

i miss farid aka pantat tepos(hehehe)

i miss dinselamat aka adek dayah(lame sak....)

i miss all who miss me....!!!!!!

meetup soon aite..... bubbletea/random photoshoot meeting soon....

I HEART MY HEALTHY DOSE OF SANITY(SHITNESS)....

this sunday

2008-12-24T03:21:00.000-08:00

hey all, im having a bbq this sunday at my home...

i would like to invite all of you to come to my house.....

so if anyone would like to come, u can msg me at my facebook or msn

or u can also tag at my tagboard....

so hope you guys can make it....

xoxo

mischiq

this is for miss nani martini(mama_bimbo)

2008-12-23T03:21:00.000-08:00

this is for my lovley friend nani...

sorry babes i cant meet you on ur bdae....

juz wanna wish you happy 22th bdae....

promise i make it up to u k....

missing you....

if u guys wanna know, im not usually close to this friend of mine... but lately i feel our friendship has grown quite close... the days when i went down to tampinese to hang out with her, when to her house early in the morning to go to escape theme park which turn out not happening coz both of us accidentally slept, eating my now fav food ban mian at food culture, to lepaking in front of tampinese's mall void deck.... telling secrets that not mean for anyone else to know(u know which i eh...) this were some of the triggers that made us closer.... im grateful for all this trigger coz without them, i don think we have gotten this close.... bottom line is i heart u Siti Nurhanani Binte Amin.... i hope our friendship grow like the hair growing on my legs... hahahahahah.... RANDOM eh....

from your dearest/cutest/mentelest friend,

Nur Aisha Binte Zaaba....

at the junction of our lives...

2008-12-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever) -

this song really hits the spot in my heart.... i have always thought that we will always be friends till the day we all grow old... but FATE have other plans for us... the furthur we grow apart, the more our friendship comes to an end.... as some of us grow furthur, some grew closer... as the song goes,"As we go on, We remember all the times we had together, and as our lives change come whatever, we will still be Friends Forever...."

juz remember, whatever happen in the near future, we always be friends forever... we might not be as close as before, always know the bond we make will never break...

i love u guys...

till we meet again.....

i have decided

2008-11-27T23:16:00.000-08:00

i have decided not to go....

sorry guys....

next year then...

i promise......

in my defense....

2008-11-27T22:17:00.001-08:00

went to meet nani

talked about stuff.... had a few laughs... not a few actually but quite a lot...

missing her already.....

as my title state

in my defense,

i didnt know his true nature pe......!!!! hahaha...

n pls eh... a lot of adults like to watch cartoons....

K-U-Z-C-O!!!!

kuzco kuzco go go!!!!!!

hahahaha...

ass u nani.....!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahha..........

gigit t*t*k kau aru tau.... hahahaha....

our new love....

2008-11-21T00:22:00.000-08:00

i missing them

2008-11-09T21:28:00.000-08:00

I MISSES MY SHITNESS!!!!!

there was a thought

2008-11-03T04:45:00.000-08:00

like i told some of my best buddies, there was a thought for me to "undur diri".. they ask y.. they even when to the extend of dont want to talk to me... but i tried to explain my situation to them...

i am like on the other side of the bridge while all of u are on the other side...

however fast i try to cross the "cursed" bridge, i notice im juz growing furthur away

no matter how fast i run, i will be 1 bridge behind you guys...

im getting tired of running....

i feel you guys are going furthur away from my view....

i try to call out but no avail...

you guys are juz too far to hear me....

here i am on the other side of the bridge looking across to you....

the only thing i can do now is juz look across....

seeing you guys happy will always n forever put a smile on my face.....

i thanked you for that.....

i will always love the bond we build thru the years.....

Aisha aka Mischiq

1986-2008

the pain is here to stay

2008-10-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

yup like the title state my headache is becoming more frequent....

i dont know why

maybe im juz too hard on myself

or maybe im juz to stressed with schoolwork....

i need to take a breather....

i need to release all the bottled up emotions....

i need help....

growing up

2008-10-30T06:58:00.000-07:00

as i promise that certain someone im gonna update my blog... this is gonna be quite a long blog so pls bear with me... im trying to bear all my thoughts here and now....

i think i've change... dont know if its for the better or for the worse but i know i have change... im not who i m 5 years ago....heck i dont think im who i m 4 mths ago... i notice i've been diferrent lately.... i easily get hurt by small, unimportant stuff.... most of you might think im emotional, maybe some of you might call me a petty bitch... i take that all in my stride... it might be because im growing older and getting abit more sensitive then i use to.... everytime i feel this way, my emotion runs high... i get all teary eyed and i get this spliting headache... but recently, im getting more and more of this spliting headache... i don like blaming ppl and i do think its my fault that im being a petty bitch.... im not surprised when the day come, i not being missed... as of now, im already accepting the fact that one day, i might not being missed... not by them, by you and also by myself... the wall i put up is going much higher than i though... once i though the wall might crumble and fall beneath my feet but as days grows by and minutes fly by, i dont think it will crumble and fall but its getting stronger.... i might be smiling all the time but the person inside me is constantly bleeding... the wound will never ever heal... its constantly bleed till i run out of tears... as i type this post, i keep thinking about the good times i had.... those happy memories i will carry till the day i die... i dont think i am able to take any more spliting headache... it hurts me more that anyone can imagine.... its gonna hurt me more to try fade into the background...

when some of you read this post, i know what will go thru ur mind...."alamak dier nie emosi sgt ar, tkkan bende2 cam nie pon nk merajuk...." im sure some of you will have this going thru ur mind... i cant change the emotional side of me... im more sensitive now then i was when i was is sec school.... i know some of you might think its better off for me to not be the center of attention... some might even say im demanding your attention... im not... i juz want to be heard... i dont think im being heard cause you don see me as an importance... im juz the girl whos loud but not being heard... ppl dont like to be left behind... but im too used to being left behind that everytime i get left behind, some part of me wilthered away.... and when that happen, i tend to get emotional and my headache will appear....

im now at a crossroad... which path should i choose.... i am seriously tired of being emotional... i tired of crying everytime i close my eyes to sleep.... im tired of being unheard.... im juz tired......

for the time being, i dont think i want to face anyone... this is who i become.... the real question is can you accept who i become now...........

life is bleek...

2008-10-07T04:01:00.000-07:00

got back from kampung..

i finally realized something...

however i feel connected, there will always be an unvoided space between us

took me this long to notice it..

now i understand it...

there will always be a wall between us..

however hard i try to push it down

it will still be there..

i am happy as i am from this side of the wall...

to get to peek on your side from time to time, is all i ask for...

i will not fight this distance created but embrace it...

i love u all....

till we meet again.....

BALIK KAMUPUNG!!!!!!!

2008-09-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

hey guys, as u read my topic im gonna be MIA for a while.... im going back to my aunt's kampung for raya tis year...

so i don tink i will get to msg or call any of you guys anytime soon..
but not to worry cause im gonna leave my msian hp num to
some of u so what i can wish on the day ok....

but before i go on my trip i juz would like to say....

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin...
Kalau ader salah silap, aku mintak maaf.....
Halalkan makan minum aku.....

till then when we meet again......

lots of huggs n kisses and love from me to all my lovely shitness
and to also you guys who by any chance reads my blog....

*muacks*muacks*

p/s: to you i would like to say i don blame you for not being there on my day. i understand the commitment you have... but juz don let me get to know that you wasnt there because you were meeting someone else at the same time... that reason is totally not acceptable.... dont throw away what we have juz for the sake 1 person... pls.. i pray to god that you might someday see the error of your way and how much you hurt us... we all miss you... i miss you... and you didnt had the chance to wish me..... maybe someday you will see the hurt you inflicted on us....

till then, hope you find what your looking for.....

i was trick-ked

2008-09-28T09:15:00.000-07:00

ok so on saturday on the 27th of september, supposed to meet up this menjengs cause they said jnab wanted to buy kasut and beg raya..

so me being the gulible one said ok... and since my ABG DIN(he was in the complot too) said he wanted to get me a free pizza i said ok...
i mean its like killing 2 birds with 1 stone rite...
since its my bdae n all i was kinda expecting to meet the shitness...

but alas, all gave their oscar winning performance in acting to me....

called up dayah earlier asking her if she was bz on that day n she said no due to having to work during the peak period of the F1 thingy..
i say ok...

yati told me way2 earlier that she had to do a night flight n wasnt able to meet me up on that day...
since i understand her working hours,
i said ok...
*bear in mind by this time i was kinda sad coz cant meet most of my frends on my bdae*

saw some of the shitness online and ask if they were free on that day,
sadly most of them said they were bz but they did wish me happy bdae...

so wasnt too sad cause zainah and nadya said they are able to meet me..
ok i was like"ok what the heck i can celebrate with them, and maybe the rest might join later"

so meet them on that saturday...
supposed to be at 2 but due to some technical fault meet them a bit later....

ok you guys can see the 1st picture i was wearing different set of clothing...
after meeting those menjengs(masline tagged along to meet me and i though that was sweet of her)
they all decided to go to This Fashion...
jnab said she wanted to buy some stuff...
so i said ok no hal.....

at that point i still didnt get it even when they relentlessly asking me to try on like a zillion*joking maybe like 4-5* dresses..
they said they wanted to chill out somewhere and wanted me to get a change of clothes...
so i said ok like no harm rite... well that was only the beginning.

after a session at This Fashion, they all decided to go to PS coz nadya wanted to go to spotlight to buy some pillow casing...
after buying that we all went to the toilet to change....
the outfit i change into is the pic below....

see the cake? yes tats my bdae cake.... so after changing we went to sit outside PS...
nadya said she wanted to do my makeup..
i was like hmmmm ok lor, anything ar....

so we sat outside PS while nadya was bz drawing on my face with her makeup...
during the makingup session masline suddenly said she wanted to go to al-majlis...
said she wanted to try the wedges there since jnab said it was like freaking nice...
by this time i still didnt know anything...
at 1st i wasnt too keen to go back to bugis since we were all from bugis but since they wanted to go i was like wat the heck juz go ar... at least got to chill....
so we all took the train and talked crap....

imagine my surprise when i walked towards the shop and saw my lovelys all there and holding a birthday cake....
seriously i ALMOST cried....
i did teared a bit...
i was soooo overwhelmed that they did this for me.....

since most of them wayang everytime i call i was like ok la semue bz so try to paham ar....
to my surprise they were actually there waiting for me......

how sweet can my shitness be....

now, im gonna give my special shoutout to each and everyone that was there......

firstly to my darling dayah/mary, thanks babe for planning this surprise for me....
really thought that you were at suntec city doing coffee for random strangers...
you really had me......
to you i love with all my heart, i juz want to say thank you and also i know
that i can count on you to be there for me in my times of need...

to barney, you juz recently join the shitness clan...
but the way you are with us is like as if you known us for years....
i really like your spirit and ur personality...
bubbly and very cool person.....
to you i would like to say,
i thank syaz for introducing you to us.....
i dont think shitness would be the same without you....

to my husband, wak rizal... hahah...
hmm eventhough i have to share you with ur 1st wife...
i really don mind...
cause now i have someone else to share my burden with beside with yati...
juz want to say im sorry if i gave you the impression that you were the reason
me and yati drifted apart...
i will always love you eventhough have to share you with ur 1st, 2nd and 4th wife....
hahaha.....

yati, what can i say to you....
actually theres a lot that i can say but to say it all i dont think its gonna be done soon
so let me juz cut it short...
i love you my bestfriend.... and remember
whatever the situation gonna be like in the future, you can always count on me
to be there for you......
i can never find a replacement for you.....

nadya aka my menjeng,
i dont know why but you are always a bimbo....
hahah... but tat is good cause without you, shitness will be a total bore...
for you my dear, im always missing your bimboness eventhough i juz meet up with you...
ur a constant light that brighten up my day no matter how gloomy it is....
i consider myself lucky to have you as my fren...
i heart you menjeng......

to you my sister/mother of the group,
i really appreciate when you came down to meet me
that faithful day when i was under sooo much pressure......
i didnt expect you to come running when i called you....
i want to thank you for being there for me....
i know that, that will not be the last time....
i can always count on you.....
i heart you......

yes to miss jnab, i didnt expect that we were going to be this close...
during sec school i always though that you were too good to be one of my
close frens...
apparently i was wrong... you end up being one of my closest fren
and also a listening fren when i need to
let out my anguish.....
again i want to thank you for being my listening ears....
i heart you wif all my heart....

masline....
simply put it.....,
i heart you for being there and tricking me.....
hahaha......
i wish you can join us in our upcoming lepaking session........

to all of you shitness,
bear this in mind.... whatever gonna happen in the near future....,
you guys will forever be in my heart.....
i will never forget our beautiful friendship.....
i love you guys......

*this is to the ppl that was there but no pic on the day itself due to the fact that dayah went back early and no D80 to take our vogueish pictures*

to nani, i thank you for ur lovely gift.. eventhough kite jarang dapat lepak.... i heart you like i heart the rest of the shitness..... and to fadly, i like you.. i tink ur a cool guy... cume kite tk bebual je... maybe due in time we will talk like frens not like some stranger that coincidently going out with my fren......

to my sister... mr farid hilton....., i love you my straight but likes to act gay fren.... i really wish we can lepak more often.... often like when we were in ite bb..... really miss those times..... hope we can be as close as we were last time...... love you my bro.....

to the rest that wasnt there, my heart is with you guys........

this is especially to my ABG DIN, eventhough you cant make it to bugis.... thanks for tricking me and being in the complot.... i heart you also... and ur in denial...., i still thinks your flirting.... hahaha.... jgn marah eh abg din ku... hahaha.... ingat shaiful nye formula.... DIN+FLIRTING=TK MENGAKU..... hahahaha..... walaupon we juz known each other, i feel we have the chemistry to be close and good frens..... hope you feel the chemistry too.... hahahaha........

lastly, i juz want to say thats again for the lovely surprise.... i love you guys..........

xoxo
aisha/mischiq.....
muacksss....

2008-09-23T10:09:00.000-07:00

hey guys, sorry for the late updates... currently not in the mood to blog.. don't know why... maybe my hormones have something to do with it...

been kinda down lately... i don know why...... i know that i can always trust my sh*tness to be there for me, but i keep having this feeling that i m all alone.... everytime when i have a chance to look deep into my thoughs, everytime i feel i m alone...

yes, to people who knows they might see the fun loving, bubbly and overactive me.... but behind that there's always an insecure girl who feels she alone even when she is surrounded by her dearest and closest friends... an insecure girl that can sometimes overpower the fun, bubbly girl...

my 22th birthday is coming up soon... im suppose to meet my friends... but now i don't know...

should i or should i not?

what's happening between us......

2008-09-16T01:57:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i got to REALLY talk to you

i understand that you're busy and all

but isn't there just a few minutes that you can spare for me?

we use to do stuff together

going out, hanging out, talking endlessly on the phone

but for the past few months

i'm beginning to feel the drift between us

don't you feel it??

or maybe you just to occupied to notice it??

i m not trying to be an insensitive bi*ch

but i guess i m not important enough to you

you find me when you need a listening ear

you find me when your life is in a spiral

where were you when my times of need?

where were you when i need you?

some might say i m ungrateful

some might say i misunderstand

some might even say its my fault

but i know however true or untrue what they say

this friendship is coming to its end....

my romeo.....

2008-09-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights,
See the party,
the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh,

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town. and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you

him who uses my hp as his own personal camera....

2008-09-10T10:20:00.000-07:00

he took my fone and made it his... actually theres more picture but im too lazy to find all of them.. hahaha.... yup u can see how vain this fren of mine is... hahaha.... he is still in denial though.... hahaha.... in denial in most of the stuff..... hahaha....

**selagi kau tk mengaku din selagi 2 la shaiful susah nk landing hotair balloon dier... madang nk kene kai formula yg dier create je.. hahahahaha.....

they are the sunshine of my life.....

2008-09-09T07:11:00.001-07:00

jnab_barney_nani

she's the reason for all that i am

the ladies

after beaking fast... looney we were....

the toilet makciks

them who i will always love and cherish

she whom i love with every beat of my heart......

finding for the 1 bestfriend to fall for....

2008-09-06T05:58:00.000-07:00

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

*the song of my life now... maybe one of my many guy bestfriend is the 1 for me... the 1 that im gonna be in love with...... maybe... juz maybe......

the end of the begining

2008-09-04T10:09:00.000-07:00

apparently i m now blacklisted.....

currently NOT working for anyone.......

I HATE MY LIFE.....

*for those who was really behind me in getting the job, sorry to let u guys down... keadaan memaksa aku utk berenti...... 080806 batch you guys rock my world.... hope we all still keep in touch....

me to .......

2008-08-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

Tidak sukar untuk kumembaca hatimu...
bila mata lebih lantang bersuara...
apa kupercaya
dedaun mekar di pepohon
rupanya gugur di musim luruh...

Dalam diam cinta telah merubah hati
dalam diam persimpangan menanti..
bila berdampingan jalinan mesra tiada lagi
tiada sinar kasih menyinari

mungkin dirimu dah ada pengganti
yang mengukir senyuman hatimu dah dicuri
mungkin juga diriku sudah menyusahkan
tidak sempurna lagi..
apa itukah di hati

demi kasih kita...
katakanlah sayang...
hanya awan mendung yang kan menanti kita
tak guna berpura jika hati tawar
oh demi kasih kita...
ikhlaslah padaku..
masihkah punya ruang di sudut hatimu...
atau dah tertutup pintu di hatimu...
katakanku ingin tahu...
ingin tahu kerna masih sayangkanmu..

daku faham bibir enggan berbicara
mungkin tak sanggup lihat kukecewa
setelah sekian lama
impian dibina bersama
namun takdir punya kisah berbeza...

tak terbayang pedih rasa di hati
tak pernah kualami
tak bisa diubati
tanpamu di sisiku..
bagai hilang punca
kuhilang segalanya..
hanya kau yang ku cinta

*might sound gay when i say this song i dedicate to one of my girlfren.. i tink the lyrics song most sums up what i have to say to her....

no title

2008-08-25T02:26:00.000-07:00

i am unloved....

*will be away to find the my inner being..... call me when the need arise..

thanks....

mischiq

latest edition

2008-08-20T11:11:00.000-07:00

hope u guys like it...

sori guys cause the wordings are to freaking small for anyone to read it.. so im juz gonna tell wat the slides says...

1st slide-Shitness-Inc
Truely goodfriends are hard to find, difficult to leave and impossible to forget

2nd slide-to him i consider my older brother
a real fren is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out

3rd slide-to her whom i call my sister and my bestfriend
true friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable

4th slide-to them whom i will love for the rest of my life
my best times are the times i spend with you.

5th slide-There are many types of ships. there are wooden ships, metal ships and plastic ships. But the best and most important types of ships are friendships

6th slide-I have nothing to offer so its love im going to send. its nothing that i've borrowed, nor nothing that i'd lend. this love that i send comes with a lifetime guarentee.

7th slide-memories last forever, they simply never die, true friends stay together they NEVER say good-bye.

8th slide-Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend."

9th slide-Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannot congeal in winter."

10th slide-A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart.
True friends are never apart, maybe in distance, but not in heart"

11th slide-Friends are born, not made.
Them i call frens
Hidayah
Zainah
Nani
Syani
Sopie
Nadya
Barney
Masline
Yati
Rizal
Farid
Aisha
"Gems may be precious, but friends are priceless."

ok this are the stuff on the slides.. so if u wanna now what i put on the slide this might tell u guys....

a new video for my shitness_inc

2008-08-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

hey all its been a while since i did a video for my lovelys...

i tink i got enuf pics now..

ok time for me to make a newest video....

wait for it ok....

from me to u...

2008-08-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

the newest edition to the starbuck family tree

2008-08-10T09:05:00.000-07:00

hey u guys, its been a while since i update sorry ya all. been totally swamped with sch..... plus exam is coming ard the corner so been bz revising and stuff..... yup and also been bz wif finding a part time job 4 my 2 mths hols....

and guess what.....

thanks to a certain fren of mine(ABG WAFFUIDIN) i actually got the job as a barista... hahaha. how ironic is tat... i mean ME a BARISTA....

super duper excited.... the only thing now is to tell daddy dearest that i got the job.......... hmmmmmmm wonder how he would react........

i tell u guys after i tell him k....

take care guys.....

p/s: thanks nadya for following me to TTS... u made me less nervous.... haha... ur welcome as i noe u gonna say thanks 4 the nice time shopping at novena juz now... its my pleasure in making you shop n shop... hehehe....

studying ala changi

2008-08-04T01:52:00.001-07:00

yup currently at T1 doing my web tutorial...

ass is totally in pain due to fact that has been sitting for the last few hours

juz us

Mischiq & Blacko

care to join us anyone??

botanical love

2008-08-03T18:47:00.000-07:00

hey guys, its been a while since i camwhored wif my lovelys...

had the chance and grab it...

we went to botanical garden n camwhored

loved it soooo much

decided to do it again when we have the time

for now juz enjoy some of the many photos we took..

wan more then feel free to visit my frenster..... hahaha.....

random meeting wif sopi&hid

2008-07-31T06:49:00.000-07:00

an outing that was supposed to be revision time for me ended
up with us meeting hid on her way to work...

hearting both of them......

love u guys.......

random

2008-07-27T22:19:00.000-07:00

random outing alone... might be on the verge of depression... wandering around aimlessly while trying to figure out my life.....

*can someone guide me thru this dark times of my life..........

my new love

2008-07-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

hey all.... i juz wanna share wif u guys my newest love.... its called......

yes, its mama mia the movie... i saw the trailer on ET and i got hooked.... well know where i live, u should noe i can get the cetak rompak one... but i tot as it has not shown on any on the cinema in asia yet i assume the don have the cetak rompak... i was like super shocked when i was the movie at the shop... brought it n went back home a.s.a.p wif sister... yup.... this movie is live the best movie eva... especially if u guys LOVE abba.. then u guys would LOVE this movie.... my sister was a big fan but when the movie ended she keep repeating the songs over n over again.. hahaha.... its super addictive... im gonna dl the song n upload on my mp3... hehehe.... COOLNESS!!!! so guys i recommend u guys go n watch this movie if ur an abba fan.. if not, hmmmm maybe u should juz watch it and sing along to the songs....

*pointing while singing on top of my lung* "you can dance, you can jive having the time of ur life.... huuuu... see that girl watch that scene digging the dancing queen"*

sorry ppls

2008-07-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

hi guys, sorry for the late entry and all... been thrown in a whirlwind lately... got all emotional n sick at the same time..... maybe its juz me ....

oh yes, last monday my makwan(grandma on my dad's side) passed away..... yes, she went off peacefully... i donnoe why even though i don like her tat much(maybe due to the fact that she too don like me n my siblings) i still feel sad on her going off.... well like they say blood is thicker then water..... now im left with only nenek(on my mom's side).... haizz....

i tried calling a few of my frens on the time she passed on but maybe due to them being very bz they cant pick up my call.... eventually i got hold of one of my fren to tell him my plight... thanks ayid... for being my listening ears in my time of need... n thanks yati for replying my msg as i know ur on duty.... for those who i tried calling but couldn't pick up, i understand....

ok enuff of the sad stuff.... i would like to thank everyone for the lovely evening we all had at dayah's crib on sunday.... like to thank sopi 4 his lovely speech on his blog(due to the fact he was too shocked on the day itself to give a speech)..... yes i m too excited that we have reconciled. have to thanks dayah, yati n syaz for that.... we should go out more often... try to rekindle the frenship we have b4... yes... we can try... its gonna take a while but hey im up for it.... i can see the outing we gonna have like watching some lame ass movie wif ur cuzzen adi or going to my house n chill.... hahaha.. fun times.. n what happen to ur cuzzen adi? MIA nampak... tell him i miss him... n his lame ass jokes...

i leave u all with some pics i took on sunday... n maybe some random pics i wanna put here... hehe....

the shitness_clan w/o yati

waiting for the birthday boy to arrive

my heart n soul

frens beyond time.....

lasting frens are hard to find.... but fortunately i've found them....

comeback

2008-07-07T05:15:00.000-07:00

hey all, betcha u all thinking where have i been to... not updating my blogg in quite a while... sori guys, been SUPER bz with school n such.. thus no time 2 update.. hmm ok lets see whats i been doing the pass week....

-been super bz with school work n such

-got to know a new fren(thanks to sopie)

-got 200 bucks richer(thanks to the gst thingy)

-rekindle my frenship with a certain bestfren of mine...

-rekindle my sistership with one of my sista....

-on talking terms with a certain person(if u wanna noe u can ask me myself)

yah.... i tink tats like more or less the stuff i go thru the week..... sounds like nuthing but its actually more than that... i juz cant remember the rest of the stuff i did.... yap2.... now days my days revolves around school life.... apparently my social life is going down the drain.... i dont get to hang with my shitness as more like i use too... haizz..... the stuff i have to sacrifice.... but it has to be done.... so i need to suck it up.......

ok la guys, i continue some oter day ok... tired from all the exercise i did today.....

some pics to lighten my blogg......

say hello to my new fren.... erm...*pssst wan, name dier sape eh...*

tis is my most jambuest fren from sec sch... miss nani/bobbi...

mischiq & ayid hilton

m i a bad fren??

2008-06-23T18:59:00.000-07:00

i juz got to know that one of my closest fren during my ite times juz deleted me from his list of frens . a bit shocked to me as i don tink i did any wrong towards him... or maybe i have.. i don even know.... feeling abit disappointed n sad cause didnt expect him to do this to me....

APPARENTLY IM A SUCKY FREN TO SOME WHO KNOWS ME.... DON ASK ME WHY CAUSE IT SEEMS IM LOSSING SOME OF MY CLOSEST FRENS I KNOW DURING MY ITE TIMES... MAYBE ITS THEM OR MAYBE ITS JUZ ME.... I DON KNOW WHAT IM GONNA DO TO NOT TO LOSE THE LITTLE FRENS I HAVE IN MY CIRCLE.

*note to my current frens*

guys, i noe i m not as perfect human being as some ppl... so if u don tink im being a good fren pls tell me straight... i will try to be as perfect as one can be.... if i cant then im very2 sorry......

i think i need to do some searching... finding the person that i think i am.....

rekindled relationship

2008-06-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

hmmm got a piece of good news....

apparently i've kissed and made up(a figure of speech ok.... so don get any ideas)
with one of my used to be bestest best fren

ya we got into a huge fight during my ite times....

to the extend we were not on speaking terms till we graduated from ite...

we use to be super duper close...

but due to certain factors we loss the closeness that we once had...

but tat all change...

coz we started talking on msn..

and we settle any differences we had....

so now we're frens...

but to like last time....

only time will tell...........

my new found love

2008-06-15T10:23:00.000-07:00

hi all, well i wanna share with you guys my new love

i actually have a few love in my life...

let me list it down for you guys....

camwhoring with people who appreciate the art of camwhoring
reading my historical romance novels
imagining myself as the heroin of my romance novels
daydream about the day i will find my Mr.Right
thinking of going for a diet

and now to add on to my ongoing list of new love is.........

VIDEO MAKING......

i don now why but i m juz addicted to making videos...
(not those kind of videos that will spread to the whole island)

the kind that involves the people around me...

This is my latest edition of video.....

enjoy....

xoxo
mischiq

ramblings

2008-06-14T03:58:00.000-07:00

super upset today mainly due to the facts that i cant meet my lovelys today

yes a stupid on my part coz didnt take my passport out of the car

dumb rite.... ARGH!!!!!! (kalau tk da bole tgk wayang free)

but tats not the reason 4 me to be pissed

im pissed coz i cant meet up with them when i miss them sooooooo much....

but theres always another time....

im sorry guys coz i didnt get to meet u up 2dae....

i'll make it up 2 you guys k....

love u all.....

ok.... my current status never bother me before... but when i came back from my mini vacation i suddenly feel lonely all of the sudden..... i keep wishing that i have someone to msg constantly, to tell me sweet nothings, to say how much he love/misses me... yess... i miss having that someone to love... don get me wrong but i m happy with my status now, but the loneliness can sometimes creep up on u unexpectedly.... my lovelys told me its a phase i have to go thru... seriously i hate feeling like this... i keep having this jealousness everytime i see some of my frens being lovey dovey and all... don get the wrong idea i love my frens and the significant other but i juz cant help the feeling that i too want to feel what they are feeling... maybe im juz destined to be alone... i juz hope im up for the challenge..........

*wan, kau nk naik kL kan besok.. take care je... sori nari nye plan tk jadi.....*

xoxo
mischiq

im back

2008-06-12T02:34:00.000-07:00

hey all, im back from my short vacation at pahang(not malaka la wan)
yups2.. n i miss all u guys....
very2 much.......

anyways, i did make a video for my bimbos before i go but
i didnt have the chance to post it.. so
here it is......

its a last min decision so i didnt have time to put in all the credits like i use to
so enjoy it guys....

p/s:hope u guys like it... especially my bimbos.....

im leaving on a jetplane

2008-06-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

well not on a jet plane literally. im leaving in my mom's ford focus.... yess im leaving u all to go back to my kampung halaman.... i'll be away for gosh how long.. co i decided to maybe stay a bit longer then my parents....

so don miss me soo much....

i heart all u guys......

p/s: syaz, have a safe journey to and from australia ok mate... ane tau kau jumpe jodoh kau mamat australia ke... hahaha.... n jgn lupe nk bawak alik oleh2 utk kite semue...*haha.... shamelesss eh aku....* and to all that gonna miss me u can always call my msia hp num... *kalau tkder baik mintak b4 besok*

the day it officially a holiday for me!!!

2008-06-04T02:08:00.000-07:00

hey all, today is the day i let loose!!!! wooohooo!!!! yea!!!! yes u might be wondering why im screaming like monkey n all, well.. as of 2day in in wvacation mode 4 2 WHOLE WEEK.. meaning no maths... no eng mech.... no eltech... no AS.... hahaha... yes simply put it as no lesson.... weeeeee!!!

so all u noe i SLAVE for like the whole 3 DAYS belaja perah otak n all.. well i hope it paid off... if not the say hello 2 this thing call RETEST... hahaha... well cant make a habit out of it... ok the last 3 days had been a hectic 3 days... what going on with my studies and my granny got warded to my best girlfren getting back with the ex... yes... n all tis happen in a duration of 3 days...*what can i say i have interesting frens*

i will refrain from telling u all coz i don tink i wanna type the whole of my life online.... nutting new happen in my own life... tats y i have all this interesting frens to make my life more lively and add spice to my life...thus i always get myself involve in their life.... well wat can i say, im a good fren... always there for them.. but don have the time for myself...

ok lari topic eh.... simply put,

IM ON VACATION EVERYDOBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a day a pigbo's

2008-05-30T01:42:00.000-07:00

hahahaha... well im gonna get a lot of tag for this tittle... heheh... might be wondering y i havent update.. im bz ppl... wif my common test coming im super2 bz with my revising n such... reaching home at jb ard 12 am daily... i do noe why but seems like ever since i started poly life, i keep going back later n getting lesser sleep.. can someone explain y... ayiooo.... getting panda eyes n all....*not COMEL u noe...* hehehe....

as the tittle tells u im now currently at pigbo's place.. yeah juz chilling out with the love... hahaha.... apparently pigbo has a new name which is Orix..*fuyoh*fuyoh* hehehehe.. we all voted and the vote has spoken.... Pigbo is now officially Orix... heheehe....*don worry pigbo/orix, i still hearts u no matter what....* The reason tat statement i made it bold n suer big is becoz i wanna let all noe that i heart tat human/animal... heheheh..... *chill takmo marah2... nanti aku kasi kau buah-buahan dan species tanaman ok... hahahaha*

ok peeps, after tis post im going on a common test mode.. so might not be updating anytime soon... so pls bear wif me aite.....

loving u all....

I HEART PIGBO/ORIX!!!!!!!!!!

*REDBULL GIVES ME WINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

let bygone be bygone....

2008-05-26T18:07:00.000-07:00

my entry today is about dissing... ok u all noe then i juz when thru a phase of make a fren n lose a fren.. ok let me story u all about it... juz 2 make it clear ok.... im not dissing or wat juz stating the facts the i went thru....

*NAMES AS BEEN CHANGE DUR TO THE FACT I JUZ DON WAN TO TELL U GUYS.... IF U REALY WANNA NOE U CAN ASK ME PERSONALLY....*

FRIEND 1:

lets call him X. ok me and X were like super close once apon a time... yup... we went everywhere together.... if X is the there might be a big chance i'll be there too... we went thru a lot 2gether.. i mean like we use to fight bout trivial matters n all... but we always make up after that... the reason we lost contact*or more or less aku buang dier dari kamus kawan aku* is because we had a big misunderstanding... ok i admit at that time i made a decision to irrationally... but at that moment of time i tot it was a good idea... i mean like i did regret at 1 point of time but i was too EGOISTIC to admit it.... but after a few mths of counselling by my bimbos and sister love.. i decided to give the frenship we left behind a chance....so i did..... now me n him are good... the wound is healing bit by bit.... but yes we're in speaking terms now....

FRIEND 2:

Let's call her Y. ok HONESTLY SPEAKING i HATED her during my sec sch years... the main reason i guess coz shes more or less a BITCH of the normal acad batch...... but i was a hyprocrite too coz infront of her face i played the fren but a the back i was not.... i mean tat was during the sec sch time.... after tat we sort of grew close as years goes by... i mean maybe we had something in common which is working life.... yes use to call n talk 2 her everyday... ok now ppl X n Y they use to be close frenz but as terms goes by so does their frenship..... so at tat moment in my life i had X in common with Y... tat is why i was so close with her... coz we use to go ard dissing X.. yes i ADMIT that i go ard dissing X... but after i got close wit 2 of my bimbos, Y cant accept the fact tat i forgave X... so she goes ard labeling us traitors n THREW US FROM HER LIFE.... i mean seriously la..... i don have anyting against her... y must SHE THROW US... ok if u read her blog u see she says that WE THROW HER... NOT HER THROWING US........ SHE thinks we are of no use to her.... not us.... we tried to make peace but she says its too late.... SHE EVEN THREW AWAY MY DARLING SISTER OK THAT HAD NUTTING TO DO WITH THIS MATTER.... my darling is juz an innocent victim in this ordeal.... its juz wrong..... maybe she cannot accept the fact that we all went out karaokeing without her... well tat could be a point... coz after tat outing she shut her from her life..... i mean suke hati kau la kalau kau nk buang kite tapi kau nk buang org yg tk bersalah uat ape kan....

and now she goes ard her blog telling ppl WE THREW US AWAY........ sudah la....

and the award goes to .......

2008-05-26T06:53:00.000-07:00

ok today is the day im went back 2 ite dover to give some advise or whatnot 2 the current student in ite dover... well, i tink i did ok eventhough theres no one giving me moral support...*hint*hint* but nvm... i understand u guys are bz.. so no hal.

so when we all got called upstage to do its Q&A thingy wif the current student, i like ok go ar... *no hal nye ar.. small matter* i tink me n my fren was juz mumbling wif each oter when they were asking us.. hahaha... kuang aja sak.... but who cares... after all was done went down to the canteen 4 a while 2 grab a bite n ju have a chat wif my teacher, Mr Henry... he was sweet enuf 2 treat us.. eventhough cam bape sen ar sgt kan... hahaha..... we were like talking about all of us onstage when he said its.... *ok all what im gonna say is word by word what my teacher said juz now, if u guys tink after reading tis u wanna puke ur guts out, be my guest coz i don **cking care..*

MH:"i tink aisha had a nice voice"

Me: Huh?? sure not cher, u playing rite... *cue blushing*

MH: no really... also u talk well onstage...

Me: no la... nervous sak cher...

at tis point we all talk about working life and all... ya really had a blast juz now... got to see the teachers tat use 2 be a pain in my ass.. hahahaha.... misses them.... now i m missing the guys..... when the hell are all of us gonna meet?????!!!!!!

*apparently ader jugak yg sayang aku.... hehehe.... aku sayang korang jugak... cam aku sayangkan kucing2 aku....*

p/s: aisha hearts dayah
aisha hearts yati
aisha hearts syazni
aisha hearts wan sopie(hmmmm, ok la syang jugak ar kat kau..hahah)
aisha hearts rizal
aisha hearts shitness_clan
kalau sape2 yg i miss out no worries......
aisha hearts whoeva that hearts me........

once apon a sunday

2008-05-25T04:06:00.000-07:00

well, like my bimbo says "sha blog kau cam da mati je..." well, my dear bimbo darling of mine... me didnt update doesnt mean tat my blog is dead ok....*asswipe*... haha.... i still heart u... hmmm ok wat did i do today on a sunday....

woke up at 10ish i tink....

watch a bit of cartoons....

had a bit of breakfast.....

mandi at ard 1030 after lunch.....

got myself pretty becoz going 2 an org kawin kat pasir gudang.....

camwhore a bit wif wan*yg tlg makcik aku 2* and adek...

cam back home...

played a bit of counterstrike on dear lappy...

blogged abit bout my day....

chatting wif 2 of my dearest bimbos....

talking to ownself like a mad person.....

hmmm ok... i tinks tats like all for the my day 2dae.... its not over yet so can tell u guys....... hehehehe.......

*takder org nk ikot aku gi ite dover besok... apparently its true.... TAKDER ORG SAYANG/LAYAN AKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

.........

2008-05-22T18:06:00.000-07:00

went to suntec starbuck(again.....) to chill wif the peeps... yup tats basically the thing i do now... juz chill wif the people i heart.. n my loving her to the maximum level yati came down to also chill... she being sad about her situation, she need the bimbos support to get her thru tis tough times... well yati, u can do it!!!! we will always be there 4 u ok... so tkmo sad2.. later if sad many2 become like dayah... BIMBO...

yes people. apparently i can conclude tat the reason dayah is a bimbo is becoz of the sadness level shes been in.... so dayah, don be to sad2 ok... later ur bimboness will affect the rest of us... hehehe....

don wori dayah... however bimboness u get.. i still heart u......

i heart all!!!!!!!!!!!!

*i don tink its gonna work out between me n him... i spoke too soon.... haizzz.....*

suntec trip

2008-05-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

went to dayah's workplace to juz chill after sch... too lazy to go home early.... so after sch call like a zillion time to syaz and wan to ask where the heck are they eventhough i still in sch... hehehe.... so took the bus n happily sitting n stoning(like dayah) suddenly a sense of de javu consume me... yes ppl i took the bus tat apparently took the route tat i use to take when i was working at tat certain hotel in cuscaden road.... yup while remembering the good old days i suddenly misses on of my very super duper close fren at tat place.. tried calling her bu couldnt get thru.... maybe shes bz n stuff.. well maybe next time....

reach dayah place n saw wan n syaz happily drinking away while wan was concentrating on dayah lappy... doing some design thingy for the t shirt tats we're making... among sitting n shitting ard i suddenly feel sad, but i my expression didnt show coz i tink there no use 4 me 2 be sad.... yup ppl i felt sad.. but thank goodness my bimbo frens were there 2 cheer me up... waited 4 dayah to knock off n walk to the mrt station... did a bit of cam whoring as usual... heheh... tats our no.1 hobby... cant blame us.. camwhoring is our life... hehehe.... so when i took the train my auntie called n ask wat time im coming back.. told her on the way back... cancel dinner/supper plan with them 2 go home a bit earlier...

as i reach jb, waited 4 my aunt and daddy 2 pick me up.. so blast the songs in my hp, once daddy n aunt reach got inside the car n started a normal conversation.....

daddy : asal alik lambat sgt???

me : kat skola nk belaja cikit ngan kawan2....

daddy : abis asal sampai orchard rd sane...

me : takder temankan kawan kakak naik train so kite semue alik same2 la....

daddy : *silence*

at tis point daddy started nagging 2 me about my driving.... kept silent coz to lazy to argue.... i mean i don tink i drive fast.. i tink i drive normal speed... hehehe..... rite rite rite..... no comment on this pls... thanks... hehehehehe

waited for him online... i tink its a waste of my time cos i don like he even likes me... well, maybe i get better luck next time......

*kesian aku kan... tkder org sayang aku.......*

matters of the heart.....

2008-05-20T06:43:00.000-07:00

waiting 4 you in vain

and when you came u don even say hi

and now im still waiting.....

how dumb can i be....

apparently very dumb........

a day in me casa

2008-05-20T03:53:00.000-07:00

spend the whole day at home... slept at 2 am and woke up at 9 due to having to go online and do some school thingy stuff online.... yap... mostly tats how the whole day spend... lounging around at home being online and juz doing nothing.... got scolded by daddy dearest coz too lazy to do any housewerk....

daddy: kau duduk umah tk tau nk kemas ke ape... ape nk jadi anak dara cam nie...

me: ape ayah, kakak ngah uat keje sekolah la.. kene ikot timing nk masok ikut timing kalau kat skola.....

daddy: *cue paiseh mode while covering with sort of angry/paiseh* ape nie kate tk skola pas 2 kene ikot timing skola.. cuba la jadi anak dara 2 jgn malas....*close room door*

yes my dearest daddy.... like to think that hes always rite.. n when tat 1 time when he is wrong he will make like stupidest reason to blame me.. well use to it... so juz smile n pretend i don hear wats he nagging about... yup, tat is how my day is usually on if i m not in sch.... the life of the teenage/young adult daughter... it is actually better to hear my dad nad then my mom's nagging... her nagging is FAR worst n its usually end up with me arguing with her.... all her nagging is usually no logic stuff like turning off the car a/c without telling her..(how lame is tat rite) and some oter lame stuff which i thinks it too lame 4 me to blog it out... yup... my parents the walking nagg stereo.... one can onli be patience to really understand my parents.....

on the lighter note, i think im in cloud 9.....(not 8 or 10 but 9) yup... i don wan to say but i think i kinda like this person.. not the people i go to school wif if ur asking but some oter person tat i don tink i wanna tell yet.... i juz can hope tat this will go well then before....

waiting for him till the time hes online..........

new blog new era...

2008-05-19T08:53:00.000-07:00

ok its been a super duper long time since i blog... i tink the last time i blog is gosh.... i cant remember... the last blog i had use to be updated daily but then im juz too buzy to update... but no worries cos in this blog i will promise myself to update regularly....

ok since the last time i usually blog in malay+english, i tink now im gonna blog entirely in english..(with the occasional dash of malay) i don noe y but i juz have the feel to type in english... i tink i can express myself more then blogging in malay (eventhough i would sometime blog in malay....)

recently i juz went thru a phase of lose a fren and gain a fren... it was quite a fall but i pick up and dusted myself before going on with my life... i tink now is the time in my life that many life changing things are going to happen.... maybe in this life now i might be finding the love of my life... or maybe i might find the potential love of my life.... or maybe i'll get rich... hahha.... well the last 1 is totally out of reach.... but no harm dreaming bout it rite.. hehehehe.... back on the serious note.. i juz hope in this new life im beginning to adapt i can rise above all challenge....

ok enough said... i'll continue some oter time....

the new begining....

2008-05-19T07:12:00.000-07:00

ok all, its been a while since i blogg....

soon another side of me would be heard....

im not bitchy or brutally honest.....

im juz me.....